SeEking my Polaris

Talked to a vendor from my ex coy.
One that I can clicked pretty well with.
We added each other on msn.
Its always amazing to find long lost friends and do some catching up over the net.
Im kinda shocked that he is going for separation with his wife.
I heard rumours that he has a newfound love interest
Which he didn’t really mention to me
But he admitted that he was the one who initiated the separation
He say both of them were aware that things are awkward between them
& the relationship is going downhill
The love is dwindling
He didn’t want to see her in misery forever.
He went into depression and it affected the marriage a great deal.
To end it all, he finally made his stand.

My only comment to him was that:
You are very brave.

He asked me, ‘Are you really happy?’
I told him that I don’t know… but I will try to be.
‘But, Are U Happy right now?’ came his reply.
Hee… thanks for the concern my friend.
I think I will be alright.

Titus suffered from depression.
And he sent me an exceptionally long email.
It almost freaked me out.
In it, he wrote alot about us, about his friend betraying him, about his parents
[lovely folks they are by the way], about his life.
Its almost like a suicidal note.
It got me friggin’ scared.

Since a long time ago, I have learnt to suppress emotions within me
And that is why im willing to continue on this journey
Nobody can be happy all the time.
If there are no down times,
There wont be any up times

I choose to continue walking because...
I also dunno why.
Let’s continue breathing alright?
It will be okay.

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