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Monday, February 28, 2005
frankly.. i really dont understand & i dun wanna force myself to.

Saturday, February 26, 2005
private function
gOnna hv a drinking session at sis place later... our own chill out sessiOn.. haha~
i contributed chivas, sis bought vodka, and dunno who got another bottle of gin as well!
gOnna drink myself silly.. erm.. never like making a fool of myself in public.. so in-hse drinking is pretty fine w me.. :)

and.. am in the mood for it too.

p/s: i really hope u feel better soon.
Friday, February 25, 2005
zol, i promised u that i'll blog about this..
something hilarious happened in peaceful land today (my new office ;p)

1 plus...
got back fr lunch, settled down..
2 male colleagues (i presume singles)walked past my desk.. hesitated for a while, then they were kinda like shoving each other..
[thot you are gonna talk to her?!]
[replied: mumbling..... ]

3 plus...
my eyelids are too heavy, i need my dosage of mocha coffee!
went to our internal pantry (which is pretty small compared to the external one, YES, there is a bigger external one as well :) ),
while waiting for the coffee machine to brew the freshly grinded mocha coffee (my fav, ;p)
Viola! the same 2 guys popped in!
i was kinda caught by surprised... how come so coincidental one. grrr...
*sets /ignore guys mode on.. concentrated on adding sugar and creamer to taste.

[guy A: so... jus now where did you go for lunch?]
i looked up, he was directing the qns at me... no escape.
[me: oh... Creative]
[guy A: the canteen on 7th storey? (wad? u mean theres another one there meh? pls.. so lame]
[guy B: ohhh.... creative! wads nice there? - he looked kinda nervous, was flippin his fringe, i also dunno why]
wad a qns, i thot im the newbie here right?!
[me: (uninterested) the ban mian there is not too bad.. but i dont think it suits you guys, guys go for more ricey stuff... ] - grabbed my water bottle and coffee and i squeezed (yes, literally squeezed) my way out of there.

back at my desk..
[guy A came by: wads yr msn add?]
[me: speechless... (better give some crap excuse) ..think my msn not workin v well leh]
[guy A: (helpfully) you gimme yr add, i try to msg you and see if it works!]
[me: (@#$@%).... k.......]

the above scenario illustrated that the ratio of married vs single gals here is 9:1

whO's your tyPe?
Who's Your Type?
Your type is the ArtisteCreative. Sensitive. A bit offbeat. Your type is the Artiste, a unique guy who knows how to express himself in many ways, whether it's through words, music, or attire. You're attracted to his unconventional ways and his remarkable talents. He doesn't feel compelled to abide by society's norms. He believes that individuality is the key to happiness, and everything he does is a reflection of his "inner self." You fall head-over-heels for such confidence and style (so true!). Whether he's playing a song he wrote for just you or writing you a love letter, this guy knows how to make you feel special. He's in touch with his feminine side and doesn't need to assert his masculinity to feel manly. If we were to paint a picture of your future, the Artiste would definitely be part of it!

You are the Girl Next Door
Cute, fun, and sweet, you're Sandra Bullock, Jennifer Aniston, and Meg Ryan all rolled up into one — the perfect Girl Next Door. Naturally pretty, unpretentious, and generous, you demand your share of respect, but you aren't particularly high-maintenance. What's your ideal date? Probably a Blockbuster night — you don't mind skipping an evening on the town if it means getting some old-fashioned snuggling on the sofa. Careful yet spontaneous, you're a little bit of the Guy's Girl, a smidge of Sorority Sister (the nice kind), and just a hint of the Hippie Chick. But you've got an appeal that's all your own, which is why the guys can't stay away. People are attracted to your strong values and traditional ways. Your winning smile, bright eyes, and loving nature will make anyone want to hold on tight and never let go.

>> im going crazy.. blogging everyday... jus wanna get everything off my chest and document them. i love to live in memories... haa! NOT.
Thursday, February 24, 2005
trUe love unfOlding
Finally.. a decent show that suckers for romance, true love, tear jerkers must not miss.

"A Moment to Remember "--

it had me lost for words till now..

kudos to the director for taking pains to shoot the effects of season changed..
how day turned into night..
how sound tracks were being intro into scenes..
these little details that others simply take for granted..
They are so well thought out by him.. wish i cld freeze those scenes to admire how the frame changes.. :)

A gal that dont believe in finding the perfect one; not believing in marriage (that's me la ;p)
yet my heart was pounding away so many times while the movie was going on..
i grasped for breathe watching true love unfolding in reel life.
its simply.. Breathtaking.

enuff said. watch it while its still around.
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
abt finding the right one..
> from an email...
There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving...
there are some love that don't go away...
but we should all be lucky to end up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity.

Somebody who never lets go.
Somebody who cherishes you forever.

[how many times have we decided to walk away, break up, pack and go... just to come back to full circle again.]
Xing Fu Kuai le
bOss is out of town for 2 days...
gUys, pls entertain me on msn plssss... ;p

jus happen to discover that there's a difference between being joyous (kuai le),
and happiness (xing fu).
Being joyous is a state of mind.
Happiness is contentment, u r no longer yearning or searching for more.

Wo heng Kuai Le, doesnt mean wo ye Xing Fu
Wo hao Xing Fu, doesnt equate to Kuai Le

Wishing Everyone Happy Lunar Valentine's Day~.. may YOU be Xing Fu Kuai Le.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
gOd knows why

Managed to catch up w an ex colleague.. got some missed calls fr her.
Something must be very wrong, i thought.
After i put down the phone, felt drained.
Fate is kinda cruel to her. I really cant comprehend..
after a series of crisis.. she still has to face the trauma of an unfaithful husband.
i cant believe it.. when she was sharing w me,
i felt like her whole world is being ripped apart.
the best part was, she is still sticking by her husband cos of his mental state of depression..
and the kids of cos..
Yet... she could share so calmly.

Wish i could at least shake her out of this nightmare.
The point where we will break, only God knows best.

Monday, February 21, 2005
lunch jOke
overheard this lunch joke in the office...

why did the government increased ciggers prices again?! to $11 this time round.
Shouldn't they increase liquor prices as well?

The punch- deliverd by a guy in his mid-30s:
Dont they know that more incorrigible things happened when pple get drunk?!

LOL~ this is quite true leh....
to follow or to lead?
had a pretty eventful weekend.. catching up w old time frns are usually enjoyable for me..
and hv some extra income too ;p not bad. By the way, seoul raiders - deserved a zero rating from me.. but still had a gd & relaxing time criticising the plot and characters, haha.
People who havent catch the show yet, Good fer ya!

Sunday steamboat at sis place made me realised how bad marriage life can evolved . not dwelling into details here...
really mux find a husband who is sensitive and caring, but then again.. the love mux be there.
Was discussing with soulmate abt being a follower or leader in a relationship.
In the past, always felt that a follower loves a leader more, but now,
i think the leader leads cos he/she loves the follower alot too.. its not easy to be in leading position you know? ;p
haha.. CRAPPY!


To be truthful, director is really nice to me. he nv gimme pressure at all...
and he will come by in the morn to check how im doing.
this morn, told him i reading some past materials and files..
he say 'good! thats a good start, you will pick up fast.' then as usual he will leave me alone.
orientation ending tmr.. die.
the nx big hurdle is for him to intro me to our US marketing counterparts.
heard they r pretty egoistic pple.. and adamant on wanna having their own way.
sure cheong one.
but really, who scared who?

i think i put more pressure on myself at times. thats jus me.
some say 'spirit of excellence'; some say 'Gei2 kiang3' (act smart) :P
Friday, February 18, 2005
Great ExpectationS
you know how we always say that... he hurt me, he disappoint me, he dont love me..
when we truly reflect on these feelings of being unwanted..

we are the ones who allow ourselves to be hurt, to get disappointed and to feel unloved.
its all about the expectations we hold...

Thursday, February 17, 2005
watchin the world gOes by..
sigh... so good. completing my blog everyday before i knock off... haha. so zhuai3!
my coming weeks /weekends seemed so packed.. pple been sms/email/msn me, telling me to go for this and that.
NOTE: its good.. really, i appreciate that my frns r a wonderful bunch who bother to contact me to get my ass out of the bed. dun get me wrong k.

suddenly.. i blurted out: It seemed that my life is being planned out for me.
it was a joke la..

what i wld really like to do?

take off my shoes, laze on wooden chairs at the beach cafe at palawan beach and sipped ice mocha..holding hands w the one i love (braddy maybe ;p)
and watch the world goes by
(erm.. i mean watching bikini babes, hunks in surf shorts, strutting their silly stuff on the beach... hah)

ohh... v happy for a frn who got a job yest :) and another one who is going for an interview today.. Truly shared their joy of seeking a new passion in life. Let's do it.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
first day mind blogger
wad can i say? first day at work... !!!!
things i discover

Do not, I repeat.... DO NOT plan for a trip to come back only 1 day before u start a new job. its gonna be real shag! and i hate to drink coffee and down 2 panadol before i can come to work in an half alert mode.
oh ya.. new work place being near yr hse helps :) got out of the hse at 8:20am this morn. and i was on time. hehehee... (k, noelians.. dun gimme the killer look ;p)

IBM LCD screen is damn cool ok

Orientation going on for more than 3 days... means, i can still lo bo for the time being.

Discover boss going overseas nx week... another chance to lo bo.. haha.

i can use MSN. yes, web based.. but its a bonus. Frns.. i will still be able to chat w ya! yeah. The MSN farewell that u hv given me was wasted. siGh ;p

Being not the only newbie, yeah.. another gal accompanied me. glad we hv lots to talk abt.. but too bad she is in another dept. oh ya zol zol.. she reminds me of ya, she's v frnly n nice :)

Last but not the least.. upcomin company trip in May.. heading to BALI. Not Bad.

cheers and till i come back w more :)

Saturday, February 12, 2005
Chinese New Year Aftermath
Let me start counting down... about 72 hours before i start my new jOb.. :)
these few days hv been like whirl wind... visiting, being visited, entertained relatives, ktving, steamboating, gatherings... sometimes when you do too much of these things.. it became quite a routine.. wish time wld come to a stand still even for just an hour. i need ta slow down! preparing for my trip tmr.. rushing off immediately after service, gonna be hell of a rush. nonetheless... its my final break before real work begins. gOnna enjoy it to the fullest. ;)

Friday, February 11, 2005
official X-Noelian day

today is my official first day lobo-ing. the pic was taken on tues.. my last day at my workplace. look at the mood.. its sad. but yet im kinda looking forward to the uncertainty out there. im one who cannot stand stagnancy.. its in-born within me i guess. Changes thrives me.. i wld love to see what challenges the outside world brings. love my ex-colleagues though, gonna miss them and the good times we had for a long long time. take care gUys.. :)

by the way, im going kl/genting over valentines... first time going overseas on V-day... pple is 'bi nian', for me is 'bi VD'... couples forming snake queues outside restuarants.. just to end up being showed to a squeezy 5m by 3m table w a lousy candle on the table. i dun buy that! :p

good to hv some freSh air b4 i start my new jOb as well.

for yr eyes only...
Thursday, February 10, 2005
whY sUnny side Up?
a brand new year marked in the lunar calendar.. The year of Rooster, some said.
im happy to start tis blog to keep in touch w my circle of trust.. haha~
why d blog name 'Sunny side up'? cos i wanna remind myself that the negative things in life are jus experiences to build me up.

things are gOnna be better :)

testing only...

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