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Friday, September 29, 2006
Hog me
Wenta Hog’s breath at Holland Village yesterday.
Expensive prime ribs tasted good! But the grilled steak sandwich was too tough for my liking. Ambience wise.. too bright. The bulb is hurting my eyes.
Hard rock café seemed to be better. Or the outlet at chijmes.. looks ok.
Hogs are actually wild boars, and the service personnels were all wearing tee shirts printed with them. Kinda cute.

I was hoping to see Hooters gals equivalent of hunks serving me. But shucks!
Hugely disappointed.
Young, geekish, waiters were in placed, and the best conversation they could strike up was, ‘Hi, hows the food? Is it okay?’
Going round the handful of tables asking, like SOP like that… :s

Well, since it’s a free meal, I shall rate it 3.3 stars :)
was gonna take pictures, but i guess my friend is a tad camera shy..
so better not hor.



其实我有点儿累。
有一种在原点踏步的感觉。
心,却是异常的平静。
感觉好微秒。。
像是
天塌下来当被盖。
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
duhz
sighz... dare not put mascara liao
everytime i tried, it always smudge my eye de..
i want nice eyes
i dont want smudged nice eyes.
lucky my original lashes are not that short..
natural beauty is still da best! :)
Happiness wont lasts
I have heard enough about people asking,
Are you really happy?

A question that no one really has the answer to, huh.
What is this happiness that is so elusive, that we are all trying to find.

Going for a long waited trip
Getting that promotion
Attending your favorite concert
Making lots of money
Hearing the 3 words from someone you fancy
Getting that first kiss
Getting married
Seeing snow for the first time

Dare I say… we are just trying to fulfill the dream of the moment?
When our hearts doesn’t know contentment…
Happiness remains forever an elusive imagination
And we find ourselves tearing our hearts out but ending up in circles.
All the time.

Saw too many people who take things too hard;
Bang their heads against the wall too many times;
I would say this whole happiness-thing is a scam.
No, im not ranting, I just cannot stand people with zero adversity quotient.
Zilch! And when they lie bleeding.. when they reach out their hands to me,
How can I turn my back on them?
Again & again..

Pursuing happiness.. its just a dream that wont last.
Pursing your purpose in life, now, that is something else.
One is temporary; the other, is permanent.


总觉得世界上根本就没有永远快乐这回事。
可是,一定要学会知足。
不要敷衍自己了,
你不会因为没有了谁而活不下去。
是,你会很难过
可是你也一定会好起来。
Monday, September 25, 2006
Chasing cars
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?


Song of the moment for me.. when i hear Jon croaked it yesterday [ok, to do him justice, he sang it beautifully] i was totally memezmerised. It a nice sad song, that digs deep into my heart.

Some wonderful things happened over the weekends, went to esplanade for some Free Acapella performance by chance, was having dinner in the vicinity. They are not exactly a famous band, but their tunes are in sync & everyone enjoyed their easy going performance, somehow it provided a soothing feel to the night sky.

Went up to the roof terrace, overlooking fullerton hotel & the esplanade park. hey, im a tad slow, but i swear i have never been up there before! It was breezy, nah, we didnt talk much, i was just contented to soak in the peace. i was just wondering why didnt they open a chill out joint up there?! i will definitely be there every friday night. How much am i willing to trade for a night like this? Every penny i had in my wallet there and then.

And ya, i finally did it.
Bought a digital camera la.. haha.
Had 1 for a few years le & it is abit out of league now. This time i went for Panasonic Lumix FX-01 for its specs. The sales guy was nice, sincere, easy-going and offered some good advice. so i willingly parted with my cash.. and yupz, i love my toy so far. Chose the black matt colour as it is soooooo totally sleek. For interested buyers, You can go to 'Alan Photo' @ Sim Lim level 1.. it offers one of the best price so far!
Thursday, September 21, 2006
OL 's life
You know how if some of your colleagues just cant clicked and you are so caught in the middle. They can appear alright at the surface but you know how they never talked beyond the surface and safe covering of ‘work-related-problems’. So sometimes we have to go for secret ‘lunch appointments’. That is to leave the rest out and go with a particular colleague where you can have a heart to heart talk. It’s a challenging mission, as you have to be unseen and unheard by the rest!

& The strategy is to leave very early, or very late for lunch. And the worst part is, do pray very hard that when you are happily chatting away in the lift when you come back, and the lift door opens, you do not see the faces of the usual lunch khakis staring back at you. Or bumping them along the corridor when they are going toilet to release their lunch while you two just had yours. I need world peace!

Ikea shopping was great yesterday, bought a full length mirror, a nice little pastel blue blanket, [those comfy ones that you can use for your pet dog, no la, not that i have one. But i want one when im watching TV to snuggle with]. A 3-slots photo frame plus some nice postcards.. im so gonna do an art piece for my room! Ya, im artistically inclined also ok, dont play play.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
News
Yummy. Nougats are nice. Came back from a long meeting and found 2 sitting on my desk. I dunno which kind soul.. but I happily gobble them up. Nice nougats. No matter hard or soft [there are 2 types if you are not aware ;p]. They perked me up. And tell you what, its already Wednesday!

Bangkok is having a coup now.. I want to say, how exciting! But I realized it kinda mean.. Imagine the Thais who have problems providing basic needs for their family. I feel sorry for them. Politics is always an excuse for power struggle for the upper class.. My friend's gf who is there is now is trapped.. she was happily having dinner yesterday night and then the army ordered them to return to the hotel. The cables were all cut off. and that means, no TV, Internet connection, as the coup doesnt want foreign media to report on this issue. scary eh. No one knows what will happen next.

And hor, we just booked our tickets for our Nov expedition trip. Hmm.. how will it go? Exciting huh, perhaps..
Monday, September 18, 2006
Bluez
The power to keep sane at the work place.. is weaken by the seconds.
I really need to rethink.. where are all these going to lead me?
I hate to think that ¾ of my life will be spent slogging at work.
Wasting precious time away doing the things I have no passion for.
Working my ass off for tangible returns;
Killing my love for this life;
Wasting my time;
Contaminating my soul.

I hate Mondays
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Je ne sais pas l'amour!
Woo.. another gathering this Friday. Last Friday, we went to Ichiban, and the queue was like damn damn LOOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGGG. Lousy queue system, or the lack of it! Though everyone recorded their names down on a little black book. The poor waiter has to endured masses of people going up to him every minute and asked, 'so when is my turn? I have waited for [insert no. of minutes here] already! How long do you want me to wait?' Feel like telling them to cool it... cos everyone is waiting! If you are not happy, go to Macdonald's lor.

Gals are born with an advantage.. we simply kill the waiting time by chit-chatting! But we did move closer and closer to the waiter though, to make sure he didn’t leave us out when its our turn. Guess the damage? We waited for one solid hour, on foot, to get to our tables. Nah, that’s totally not my style.. I wouldn’t even bother to queue up even if they are serving shark’s fins for free. I hate queuing because 1. It is a freaking waste of my time, and 2. No class. But, well if im entertained during the process, that’s another matter altogether. Ate our fill, talked our fill, drank our fill… then its time to leave. Good times fly eh..

I finally understand why im so apprehensive of marriages. I scared my husband will be unfaithful; I scared communication break down after marriage; I scared that love will fade… but the scariest thing is, after [insert no. of years] of marriage, your start to wonder.. who is this person sharing live with you? Sleeping beside you.. do you really know him at all? People do change..

Je ne sais pas l'amour
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Special things
I got a surprise this morning! Saw a pretty & small envelope peeking out from my Ezlink card holder.. I took it out. And there is a nice little card inside that says, ‘ God’s love to you does not rise and fall on your performance, God loves you for who you are!’

There’s a personal message… Thanks sis, for helping me. And what you say is right, I will learn to focus on other things [instead of what is not worthwhile]. & I will come to your church this sat… love, XXXX

sobz…. Im ultra touched. You know how often we took family members for granted? Where, we only know how to argue, but not really appreciating each other just for being there. And after 24 years, this is the first thank you card I gotten from her. Apart from birthday cards n Christmas cards la.. im just loss for words.. hmm.. it means a lot to me, ya, I think throughout the squabbling teenage years, our sisterly love has really grown.
Though recent months she has been unhappy, and struggling with her personal problems. But I always try to show her love, and talk sense into her slowly.

Patience & support is really important.. and being able to melt out correction with love. No matter how much she annoys me at times [and continues to], she is still my precious baby sister…


Gotten a flower from a friend that says, 'You r Special'....
So im eating it to make sure I really am. crap.

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Monday, September 11, 2006
Je ne sais pas l'amour
It’s an awfully bitter pill to swallow.
When huge disappointment sets in, intending to steal our composure,
our integrity, and those things that we held so closely to our hearts.
Do we stand firm?
Or do we feel an increasingly nudging urge to let go.
The freedom is not found there.
Emotional Baggage.
This bondage, you won’t want to get yourself into..
Thursday, September 07, 2006
drifting life
My ex boyfriend & I ended up as pretty good friends,
though we have stopped hanging out together in recent months.
Firstly, I am not always available to meet him at 2am at night,
and secondly, he got attached recently [finally].
So all the more, we only catch up over emails and msn.
To think he told his new galfriend of 2 months that im his soulmate and
his mental support whenever he is down! What would the galfriend think…?!
I cannot imagine, and well, I will just leave it to fate that
I hope I wont need to meet her.
Probably the very first thought that goes through her mind would be,
“So, you are that ‘mental support’ huh..”
Enough said, guys are sometimes so uncomprehending-ably insensitive.

Someone mentioned to me about drifting..
Imagine being out in the sea, when our life is not anchor onto something,
we drift with the current, i.e. the flow of events in life.
Sometimes we take a short nap on our floats.
When we wake up, we are so far from the shoreline;

We realized we have drifted so far apart w people we are close to.
Friends, family members, even your partner.
You start to think, when did we start to become distant?
When did we?

The truth is, we have all drifted apart without wanting to.
Immersing in activities after activities in life, isn’t all that glamourous.
The emptiness deep down, is still a huge void to be filled.
Let’s just say, this is my carnal self..
And I shall not allow myself too dwell too deep into it,
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
you
My god, 3 projects hot on my hand now,
I'm so drowning.
And 2 is to be completed by end of month, one to be completed in Oct.
Im seriously drowning.
But can I please go to the beach to drown?

I miss the waves crashing onto the sandy beach,
I miss the sea breeze that will blow my troubles away
I miss the night sky where we looked at the stars
I think I miss you.
My Lovely Samsoon
Let there be you, let there be me
Let there be oysters under the sea
Let there be wind and occasional rain
Chile Con Carne sparkling champagne

Let there be birds singing in the trees
Someone to bless me whenever I sneeze
Let there be cuckoos, a lark and a dove
But first of all, please let there be love
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
venomity
Been working very hard today, despite just recovering from my sore eyes & fever. I suspect PMS is lurking at a dark corner, setting a trap for me. For I have been out-of-sortly-depressed yesterday. That means, for no rhyme or reason, I just plunge into darkness. So don’t antagonize me anymore will you? I have stopped asking for TLC from you since a long time ago, I have killed all expectations in case I get my face in the mud again.

I have given up trying to explain to people that i was born slim, has always been slim, and now is still slim. i dont understand why i dont a right to be slim? like if you are overwight, i let you be; if you had a tummy, i let you be; if you smoke, i let you be; if you had bad breath, i let you be; if your partner is uber ugly, i graciously let you be. For some things, there are just no 'WHY'. and stop acting like you are the first person who discovered this cosmic truth about my slimness. i would rather count the number of lines in an Excel spreadsheet than spend time answering this POINTLESS question. Just gimme a break.

Ok enough of being a venom, actually I had a good time with kids [colleague's & my niece] over weekends, I was actually very amused by them, they are capable of entertaining themselves and entertaining me at the same time! I was left wondering, maybe having one kid isn’t that bad an idea. Maybe, just one. :)


P/S: The Barnyard isn’t very nice to begin with.
Using cows as animations are so not cute, period.
Friday, September 01, 2006
Friday, so what..
Why is it that the fuel of my imagination seemed to be ¼ tank full these days?
I watched that kinda Love-Overcomes-All sob story like ‘My lovely Samsoon’ and I wasn’t touched. Probably my mind has chosen to focus on other events in life, & love just isn’t one of them now. Long time ago, when I look at someone, he is always shining bright. There a special light about him that captivates me. Now, he is no longer shining. Anyway, these lines are stolen from the show, 0% from my creativity.

Eh, radio is playing the song Runaway now, its quite nice, why did Jonathan sing it so lousily that time? ‘Baby now I need to runawayyyyy.. no promises.’

The dinner cum movie company event tonight better be good. Though we are forced to watch a G-Rated show, Barnyard. I hope the animals are really silly and behave like Asses. I remember watching countless times of ‘Madagascar’, and never fail to laugh like mad every time. Things I need to bring for tonight:

$30 Vila’ge dinning voucher
The Movie ticket
The Combo Set voucher

that’s like almost $50 FOC. But money cant buy happiness… haha. Actually the kid [looks about 4 years old] sitting beside me on the train yesterday is such a peach. He kept looking at me, smiling widely, then call me Jie Jie, and offered me sweets all on his own initiative. When I was alighting, he said loudly, ‘Bye Bye Jie Jie’ in his angelic voice. My heart immediately melted. And that kept me happy for a while.
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