SeEking my Polaris

Yesterday’s entry was actually entered half way.
Hmm.. something happened, and I felt like I have let someone down.
The same feelings I always get, and I always hate..
& I’m doing it to someone nOw.
Guess I cant beg enough for your forgiveness..
but seeing you sad, really affects me right down to my soul.
Just like what works for me every time, Time will make me a stronger person.

Had an okay company dinner yesterday.
Everything was extravagant, but the company sucked. I don’t think I will ever fit into the rat race, everyone-for-themselves kinda culture. Even though the welfare is really good.
I really need to think how long am I going to endure the shite. I feel like I’m buying time, and yet to do what? I dunno. 2 of my work khakis have plans to leave by April. Though we are in different shoes, as their bosses are utterly lousy to begin with. I still feel a tinge of sadness.

It’s a Friday and I really hope I do not have these much to think.
Cheer up gal.