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SeEking my Polaris
Friday, June 17, 2005
for a friend~
Alright. Probably I didn’t do him justice.
Some memories started flooding me.. sense of guilt plunged at me.
Remembered that once, when I was still in aust.
I received a surprised bouquet of roses on my birthday
He specially called up Perth’s florist from Sg and delivered it to me.
[we were celebrating & staying over at a friend’s house and he bothered ta find out the address from my friend and sent it there specially]
But
Instead of being happy and swooned over the bouquet
I was very upset with him
I dunno leh
Feel like he is stalking me lor
Maybe I had a really bad impression of him
But still, I don’t understand my reactions then
I just recalled that I didn’t give him the green light to woo me
And that’s why the sweetest gesture from him turned into a nightmare for me
I don’t want to feel like I owed him something
But
He was really very sweet
He continued to call me [overseas call damn expensive one, sometimes I pretend not to hear the phone ring, pretend that im sleep]
When I’m online, I put him on invisible list [last time still ICQ mah]
But
He still called
Once I was back in sg for vacation for my birthday
Got a surprised parcel.
It was a pair of Meyson’s [think now no more Meyson right?] diamond earrings from him.
In the card he wrote, ‘I hope sending these earrings wont offend you like the flowers did. I just want to wish you happy birthday….’
And I wasn’t even his girlfriend at all!
Touched or not?
Frankly I was touched by his gesture, but again, I told him not to do these things for me anymore.
Till today, still don’t understand why he still bothered to keep in contact with me
And listen to my woes when I’m feeling down at times
I urged him to get attached
And I think by now he finally did
Happy for him, really J
At least.. I wont continue to feel bad towards him for the rest of my life.
When we talked about these vintage memories sometime ago, I apologized to him.
Find my behavior very childish.
But
He didn’t even mind.
He said, it is fine as long as we are still friends.
Some memories started flooding me.. sense of guilt plunged at me.
Remembered that once, when I was still in aust.
I received a surprised bouquet of roses on my birthday
He specially called up Perth’s florist from Sg and delivered it to me.
[we were celebrating & staying over at a friend’s house and he bothered ta find out the address from my friend and sent it there specially]
But
Instead of being happy and swooned over the bouquet
I was very upset with him
I dunno leh
Feel like he is stalking me lor
Maybe I had a really bad impression of him
But still, I don’t understand my reactions then
I just recalled that I didn’t give him the green light to woo me
And that’s why the sweetest gesture from him turned into a nightmare for me
I don’t want to feel like I owed him something
But
He was really very sweet
He continued to call me [overseas call damn expensive one, sometimes I pretend not to hear the phone ring, pretend that im sleep]
When I’m online, I put him on invisible list [last time still ICQ mah]
But
He still called
Once I was back in sg for vacation for my birthday
Got a surprised parcel.
It was a pair of Meyson’s [think now no more Meyson right?] diamond earrings from him.
In the card he wrote, ‘I hope sending these earrings wont offend you like the flowers did. I just want to wish you happy birthday….’
And I wasn’t even his girlfriend at all!
Touched or not?
Frankly I was touched by his gesture, but again, I told him not to do these things for me anymore.
Till today, still don’t understand why he still bothered to keep in contact with me
And listen to my woes when I’m feeling down at times
I urged him to get attached
And I think by now he finally did
Happy for him, really J
At least.. I wont continue to feel bad towards him for the rest of my life.
When we talked about these vintage memories sometime ago, I apologized to him.
Find my behavior very childish.
But
He didn’t even mind.
He said, it is fine as long as we are still friends.
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