SeEking my Polaris

You Should Drive a Saturn Sky

You're sleek and smooth, and you need a car to match your hot persona. Besides, sometimes you want your top up - and sometimes you want it down.

Kekeke... exactly. I love a convertible top anytime!
Its kinda fun leh... im getting addicted to this website. :|

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.

Those are not secrets right?! Beats me.

Here goes… another piece of my ranting..
Sometimes life really sucked right? Correction, I think I meant human nature. It sucked. Or people that are close to you, or peeps whom you come into contact with daily, they never fails to irritate you or make you upset at times?

The world doesn’t revolve around a single person, and im glad it does not. But on a different note, us, humans are the one who messed up the universe. I just hope there isn’t so much condemning, bitching and politics going on. I know, we dont live in a Teletubby wonderland and im not saying that im the truth, but I can recognized a certain pattern or behaviour that totally turns me off. They say humanz are born selfish. This I couldn’t agree more. We fight for ourselves, and then our family and love ones, and then friends, and then etc etc…. ultimately, there isn’t a win win situation in this fallen world. We are always on the look out for our best interests. Then followed by others. We are so quick to judge and condemn and formed alliances.. refusing to give the ones different from us a chance. Homogeneous group are sometimes so boring. Don’t you think so?

Im really digressing.. but I don’t know why I feel a certain doom for the generations of this era. Maybe this is really god’s ultimate plan? Allowing the ugly side of humanz to dominate and then ruin us once and for all. Selfishness is a monster that has a permanent passport to our hearts. Maybe its just my own disappointment. The most problematic equation on this earth is human relations.
And I am not amazed.

Yesterday did you watch Superband?
Im sorry but I totally cannot stand the Zhou Chong Qing visual rock looks. Com’on! The skin head guy is being too kind to him to call him a Dracular… at least Draculars have style lor.. and they are cool! ZCQ is just piling on vampire make up with a messy witch hairstyle or a mop? Maybe he cant decide between the both. Last week, i remember he had this crazy, fizzy alfro hairstyle on. None whatsoever is appealing cos he cannot carry it. Lucify's make up is much better than him, and i think they dont hv make-up artist?

Pls check out my favourite [all time] visual rock band
XJapan

I used to love them to the core. And its more than 6 yrs back? The visual rock is not a new thing, it has vintage. So hor, dont simply jump onto the bandwagon to look fad, Mr DJ.

Here's introducing... my one and only beloved Beef Noodles Stall~!
that day my sis asked me to go to her wedding photo selection with her.. and i told her okay, but can we hv the beef noodles first please?! Im quite good at blackmailing people one okay.. She of course agreed readily.. BIL and me were the most happy. I think BIL stopped talking the moment the noodles arrived and he didnt even look up once until he finished his bowl of dried noodles. ME just slowly savouring each mouthful. Biting into the tender, juicy beef.. and noodles and keep mumbling, its good, its good.

so there, my stomach was so contented that i gave a loud bURp. :P
Dunno Taiwan got nice n authentic beef noodles or not hor? I so craved.

It just dawned upon me that we don’t have control over how many days we are gonna live. We should really treasure this life, live with joy and not get irritated easily by irritating people. Let the little things get out of our way.
It’s a decision to love, and it’s a decision to be happy as well.

The greatest gift in life is to learn to let go.

I’m not sure if I will be going snorkeling this time around when I am at Phuket. Of cos I remember the fascination I had when I first did it at Sibu islands.. now like abit lazy to even change into the swim gear, and get burnt by the sun. Feels lethargic at almost everything.

Everything appears fuzzy and hap hazard. Am now experiencing the aftermath of the 9km [to and fro] tree top walk on sat. Now, both my legs then start to ache like hell! On a Monday work day! Funnily.. last night I couldn’t really sleep.. No, it wasn’t from watching too much ‘The Apprentice’. There is a heart gripping sensation in my chest the whole blardy night. I almost stopped breathing. I drifted in and out of sleep, only to be awaken by the gripping pain. As I drifted off to sleep.. I thought there might be a chance that I will not wake up again. Yes, I dunno why I felt this way yesterday. There are a million things that flashed across my mind. I know there are a lot of shite still left undone in my life. I am struggling between wanting to live and succumbing to the desire of death. Ending it once and for all. It’s so tough. No, I don’t have a tendency of suicide.. It’s just the pain that is paralyzing the left side of my brain – rationality.

If I go back home like a good girl tonight and go to bed straight after dinner. Would everything turned out okay tomorrow? I hope so.

I so have to recount an incident that happened this morning. I swear that im still swooned by it.

I was printing some coloured printouts and the printer had to run out of yellow toner! Shite. I went to asked the Admin where is the yellow toner being kept. She told me to get it from a certain drawer.. and without wanting to trouble our IT guys [cum office equipment problem solver], I wanted to try to get my hands on replacing the toner myself.

Out of nowhere, sprung this knight in shining armour!! He was the QA guy, Quality checking the printer has nothing to do with his job though, let alone replacing the toner. He asked simply, ‘Hi, how can I help?’ with his colgate smile. I was so taken aback! I showed him the new pack of toner and told him that I need to replace the old one. Without any hesitation, he took over the toner from me, and proceed to ‘operate’ on the printer. Unlike what i thought, he was actually not experienced, we had to read the instructions from the printer LED screen… and followed it step by step. But he got it done in a jiffy and first try! Im totally impressed… tell me, this kind of gentleman is not extinct already in Singapore? He is from the Philippines.. young chap. Not his Dai Ji but he also willing to dirty his hands type. Very humble & down to earth guy. I very admire.

Uber no motivation to wOrk..

On top of their hefty commissions [in thousands, i heard], the top traders will get US$550 CASH plus a trip to Amsterdam for this quarter. I want to be a trader!!

Slogging in the non-trade side, when no one recognizes your efforts and you only get a miserable S$100 vouchers if you provide exceptional support. LOUSY.

No wonder the traders in my coy are all stuck up pieces of shite.